Better Option?

Stomach agony after 3 bites of food. Lips are peeling and starting to bleed. hurts just to take food off the fork. Hospice nurse says that gets worse until you start choking because you can't swallow. He has the meds ready for when he gets there, but how much is that actually going to help? Miserable and terrified. I guess that is how it ends for all of us. 

Why Can't there be a better option for people? Pets don't even have to suffer this much. 

He's 70, the government would have preferred he worked up until 3 years ago. Can you imagine? you finally get out of work and then 3 years later... why work?

Will I even get to see him when I'm there in 10 days? Spent a fortune mailing grapefruit but sounds like he won't be able to eat that from all the acid on hurt lips. Also got him a local honey with pecans in it from Texas. That would have been his favorite under normal circumstances... 

I really just wanted to sit in the room and be bored with him. Just think up ideas and maybe visualize places to go  in our head. There are so many good memories in there. Ideas and skits to help the time go by. I can be entertaining.

Maybe think of things I might like to do with what time I have left. Mom was 58, Dad is 70. I'm sure as shit not working for someone else until I'm 67.