Why Is Everything So Hard?

 Oh yea... Terrible.

Dad dying, worried about his stuff getting where he wants it to go. 

So I'm not really sure why, but Dad keeps insisting that we need better plans for picking up pinball games after he is gone. I'm not sure why he feels like he needs to worry so much about this when he should be enjoying his last bit of time here. I have a feeling that it's not actually him that is all that concerned. 

Drew asked him if we should plan another visit which was quickly met with a "NO, everyone is where they need to be". This hurt. It hurts to know that your dying father doesn't want to see you because he married such a sadist that you aren't allowed to exist without conflict.

If you loved something, wouldn't you want to see it? 

If someone really loved you, wouldn't they tolerate your children for you during your period of last wishes?

Why would anyone do such horrible things only to hurt others? Even with such distance between us she's still trying to drive us farther apart. 

Dad doesn't even drink but he's has to attend the daily drunk parties every night with trite bullshit of no meaning. The anger comes out at night. I know he hates that. But that's what Terrible wants, and we all know this is all about Terrible. 

He wanted friends. He got drunks. 

He wanted a wife, he got a boss that will never be happy and abuse him because she feels bad.

He wanted to be free from work, but he's imprisoned in his beautiful house.