dying with dignity

Ethical dying reform needs to be expedited.  It's ridiculous what we are expected to go thru here. 

I can spare my dog from suffering but not myself (when dying of cancer,  as an example)...

How is that ok?  How many more times is Dad going to say he wants to get out of here quickly?  

I'm not a welcome visitor,  unfortunately.  I do very much appreciate the recent time with him and extra chatting.  Lucky in so many ways to have these memories despite missing so many years and being denied at this time.  I made him a bracelet,  it says "Joy loves Clayton". He's changed my name on email so that there's less hate associated to it.  Dissociation at its finest.  She's poisoning the idea of me in my father.  Terrible. I can't think of anything that would hurt worse. 

Not sure I'll be able to give him the bracelet,  terrible would be so upset if it got any positive accolades. (Crochet picc sweaters in hospital, hats, water fountain).