"I've never met anyone as terrible as her"
I hate to leave Dad, but I concede and will leave as he has asked so that things can get back to normal for Terrible. She feels the need to storm off and rage back when she comes and goes. It's just not possible to exist in the same space, she hates me that much she has to leave the house.
Dad said he wished that he could see me every day until he goes but that would make life so unpleasant for him because of Terrible. That hurts, but for how unwelcome I am here I'm starting to really look forward to going home where my existence isn't a problem... Now Dad's putting it in my head that I'm overstaying my welcome at their friend's house (Dad's words, not the friends - Again, trying to get me to leave so Terrible will be tolerable again).
The neighbor helped us come up with an agreement that Terrible felt pressured into signing.
Visits will be scheduled and agreed with a few hours' notice.
Visits are limited to 3 hours maximum.
Use front door to room with TV and bathroom and porch (not allowed to be in any other areas of house/property).
See father daily while in Tryon (Unless sick).
Visits will be between 10 and 4.
We both signed this. Dad had 0 input on this. There are stickers on the counters, banisters, chairs, etc that say "don't touch my shit". The kitchen is still physically roped off with leashes.
Even now as he is feeling the end come, his only concern is Terrible. Her only concern is her. It is dreadful. He wants me to have things, he says she will honor him. I just don't see how if she can't even be in the same room with me. Such a tragic mess.
She makes me feel guilty for existing, and Dad guilty for loving me. I've never done anything right and there's a long list of itemized failures and shortcomings she's been ruminating on regarding me for years.
Some things you can't control, Terrible. But you are really good at making everything terrible.
Dad does seem at peace with going, there will be some relief.
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